Today I said goodbye to DD. It hurt. It hurt more than I expected. I think it’s supposed to be like that. It’s a bitter-sweet moment when your child flies the nest.
Last year she went off to N.Italy to be an aupair. It felt quite different. It was for ‘only a year’ and it seemed like a great adventure, a laugh, a gap.
Now she flew back again. This time for … well who knows? She’s starting a 3 year degree course at the university there, but somehow it doesn’t feel like she’s left to be a student, rather that she’s left home, to live life, to become the woman she’s destined to be.
I’m proud of her. I’m glad for her. I know Italy is just right for her. But I miss her already.
As I drove out of the airport this song was playing. It doesn’t fit exactly – but at the same time, I think, it said it all. And the tears flowed.
You and me
We used to be
I really feel
That I’m losing
my best friend…
Back home the house was strangly empty. The final wash to be done (bed linen and towel) and that was it. 20 years. Gone in an instant … well not quite, but yes, more than a chapter has closed, a volume, … and a new one opens. Today.